Snapped.

Got a minute to talk?  Do you ever have a day where you just can't take one more criticism or complaint? Not. One. More.

I had that day today.  And I got a little snappy.  I'm not proud of myself.  In fact, I feel pretty rotten about it.  I'll probably need to make a phone call tomorrow to humbly apologize.

Have you ever been there?  Your plans aren't working out.  You're tired and irritable.  You've felt picked on and picked over.  You're worn out, sensitive, spent, overwhelmed.

And someone else comes along and their words feel like stingers.  You smile and try to hold yourself together.  Inside, you're yelling, "Stop it! leave me alone!"  On the outside, you take a deep breath, relax your shoulders, offer a silent prayer for patience.  The biting words keep coming.  And you snap. 

You regret it immediately, but it's impossible to take it back. 

I was there tonight.  I was hurting, and I hurt someone with my words.

I prayed.  I cried.  I felt small.  I realized relationship is precious.  I need to be humble and pick up the phone tomorrow to ask for forgiveness. 

Submitting is hard sometimes.  It must be intentional and it must be genuine.  Because G-d knows my heart.